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Sunday, November 02, 2008

Start of my new Journey

11:57

Hmm...
I'm not sure how many of you know abt this but...
I resigned from new york new york already...
I resigned last week...

Got my pay cheque yesterday... and I was extremely dissappointed with it...
Like what my buddy told me a few months ago... It's really not worth it...

but its alright... I learned alot from that restaurant... and I have seen many things that I have not experienced in my whole life... so to a certain extent... it was worth it...

Hmm... this whole week... was extremely slow for me... too slow...
It felt like weeks already... but it was just one week...

I got to start planning my schedule for the month already...
And... I think I better give up on my trip to langkawi...
no way can I get myself that kind of trip any more...

Hmm... one more thing to update you guys on...

I'm in love... and it's not one sided...

I'm settled for second best in the end...

I guess... I don't need much... and I'm not asking much as well...

Call me when you need me... I'll be awake...

Sunday, October 12, 2008

Promoted

04:12

Hey~
It's approaching the end of my third week now...
I'd just got promoted~
so cool right?
I'm offically~ a Captain!
hehee....

However... it's only for show...
I'm still paid 5 dollars per hour...
I'm still working full shift...
and it's not like I can command people around...
I just get more responsibilities...

Looking on the bright side~
I'm getting alot of good comments lately...
and just today~ I got private tips~
10 bucks~ so cool~
you know that no one on the floor recieved tips accept me?
thats so cool la~
hahah... better not say it out loud...
ppl might scold me...

speaking of which...
I'm making alot of mistakes lately...
Forgetting alot of stuff...
and making alot of errors~
I gotta be more careful~
and take good care of my body...

Missing out alot of meals recently...
due to time constraint...
I guess I better stop working my a** off....
and learn how to manage my life...

hmmm.... I recently fell in love with a song~
I can't find it anywhere else but imeem...
can't find any links to dl it...
damned...
but it's so pleasant...

Everytime when I'm working in the restaurant and I hear this song playing...
I get duper happy and active...
I don't know why... It's not that I love my job...
YeaH... I don't like this job...
although I get alot of good comments for it...
and alot of customers are telling me that this is the line that I'm most suitable to be in...

but overall I would say...
NO.... IT'S KILLING ME ALREADY.
I'M RESIGNING SOON.
Either that or I'm knocking myself back to part time hours.
Hopefully transferring to CCK branch to continue working...
but before that... a long break...
I need a break... and before I enlist...

An overseas trip~
Don't ask me where...
If you know me well...
You know where I wanna go...

Tuesday, September 30, 2008

So far so good?

21:22

Hmm...
working in new york for abt a week now...
and everythings going fine...

I'm learning very fast...
faster than even I had expected myself to learn...
and I have recieved quite alot of good comments!
and there was even a card written for me~
a little gal gave me a magazine~
a another gal who was celebrating her birthday wanted to take a picture with me~
but... she wasn't my type... so~ hahaha...

but it wasn't always smooth sailing for me...
I had my share of rough times too...
I really don't wanna mention in my blog because I had mention it countless times to many ppl and to myself already...
so no... not gonna say it...
ask me if you're still curious...

and today....
another joyous issue happened...
while I was serving a table of 3...
one of them proposed a job interview to me...
Hash Puppies... 5.50 per hour + commission...
apparently they were so satisfied by my performance that wanted to hire me~
well... I couldn't refuse... so I went up to their store and filled up a form anyway...
Not that I had agreed to work under her...
just wanna see her in an interview to see what she could offer...
If it's better I would work... no problems~

but if not... I will stay... besides...
why would I wanna go back to retail again?
I had enough of retail already... Learn alot at Bossini already...
SO~ bottomline is...
Give me a satisfied pay...
or else... NO~

oh ya... found a very very stupid song...
the lyrics are so simple... I think a secondary school kid did it...
but hey... I think alot of ppl are loving this song right now...
wanna listen?

http://bt10.lonelylive.cn/BzJVNAc1XDwHN1Q7VG1XN1N6W1hWbFBuUzRVdgAoVXIEMQZ4VDAKM1I7Vm4Fe1dWAhQFegNhAGMCLVVgU2MHeQdjVWEHN1w1BzZUYFRsV2JTZVs+VmVQMVMxVWMANlVhBGAGMVRiCmpSZVY2BTdXYQJkBTYDZwBoAmdVMlNjB2U=.mp3

It's really stupid... you should really go watch the MV...
It's worse...
but hey...
it's so going into my MP3~

Friday, September 26, 2008

Saw her...

01:15

The most unpredictable incident happened yesterday...
I saw her...

HER....
Like you gotta be sh*tting me...

Seriously... I don't know her...
she has always been that "girl" that my friends would talk abt...
like everywhere I go... ppl would start mentioning her name...
especially my buddy and his Girlfriend...
They just wont stop teasing me...

When she and her friends came in the restaurant and sat down...
I seriously thought that shes just one of my customers...
Then slowly... I started to find her familiar...
Like I had seen her before...
but I can't really tell where or when...
Until.... I saw her shoes...

Then... immediately... it hit me...
I knew who she is...

We had a conversation...
but it wasn't really like a "Get to know you" kinda thing...
but hey... at least I talked to her...
at least now I know abit of how who she's like...
hmm...

The things karma would do to you....

Sunday, September 21, 2008

tmr

22:21

Ming Yang's going Air force tmr...

Ruby's schooling tmr... I think...

Arkmad's PTPing tmr...

Audrey's working in the hospital tmr...

Shu Hui's working tmr...

Yueting's working tmr...

Deyi's going to karaoke with Li xian and her brother and her brother's girlfriend, tmr...

Sinyu's still in PTP tmr...

Kaiyuan's still in PTP tmr...

Kang Wei's going to slack all day and emo all day, tmr...

Hong Sheng's starting SisSpec tmr...

Nick's starting his OCS course tmr...

Wushu training would be as usual tmr...
I hope everyone's doing fine...

Oita's arent the same tmr...
I hope everyone's doing fine too...

Alloycious's working as usual tmr...

Everyone's moving on with their lives, tmr...
and... well... so am I...
I going to work in New York New York, tmr...

May it be the place I would love to stay... starting tmr...

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

Ended my fight

20:59

Finally... it's over...
everything's over...
The end to my 3.5 year's of torture...
finally... it's over...

For 3 years... I have been wasting my time on unnescessary issues...
like my CCA... and relationships...
I wasted too much energy on these unrelated issues...
and caused myself to suffer all those horrible consequences...
I wont blame anyone for what has happened to me...
I can only blame myself for letting it happen...

I'm going for an interview tmr...
in a restaurant called...
New York... New York~

haha... I had never imagine that I'm gonna work in that restaurant...
Its like one of my favourite restaurants...
but I seldom patrionise that restaurant...
cool huh? you can actually fall in love with a restaurant after being there for just once~

well... everything's still not finalise yet...
I may not like what i see tmr... and may not work there...

hmm... I recently met a gal...
on Tagged... haha.... ( of all places right )

Shes alright... has an opened personality...
shes... simple and nice...
but so far I've only seen pictures of her...
really looking forward to seeing her in person...
I can tell that shes a good person...
and I'm just getting to know her...

I certainly dont wanna rush things...
I certainly don't wanna lose another friend...
and spend like another few months regretting what i've done...
oh... well...

take one step at a time... and let nature takes its course?

I saw a quote the other day...
and I quote:

"A man has only one escape from his old self — to see a different self in the mirror of some woman's eyes. "

Clare Boothe Luce

I hate my oldself...
I really do...
I can't do many things right...
and I've done many things wrong...
so I hope... that one day...

In the eyes of an angel... I'm able to see the different self I'm destined to be....

Sunday, August 03, 2008

I knew....

01:02

I knew from the start...
that it would be a journey that was abt to end...

I knew from the start....
that it was impossible to begin with...

I knew from the start...
that you might not be the one because there's so much differences between us...

I knew from the start...
that I shouldn't love another blindly...

I knew from the start...
that it would be impossible for me to learn again...

I knew from the start...
that I would be a man without guts...

I knew from the start...
that I shouldn't rush things...

I knew from the start...
that we had different dreams...

I knew from the start...
I was waiting for nothing...

I knew from the start...
that this is gonna be a long long long long long long long long long long long wait...

I knew from the start...
that I will be hurt more than loved...

WHY...
after knowing all these...
I still had to lie to myself...
hoping that you would be the one...

Enough said...
Love didn't do this to us...
We did...
Can we still face each other as friends?
Well... I can....
because the truth is...

Nothing happened...

"Being a man shouldn't be judged base on how he sits or what he has or does... it should be define as one who claims ownership and takes reponsibility for it... thats how some women can be twice the man any guy is..."

I still can't believe I made that up all by myself...